Oldies...

Aussie. Aussie. Aussie.

Oy. Oy. Oy.

I miss Australia.
Took this while lying down in front of our library.

Oyeah. I've aged. A lot.

Updates:

- Safe in Shah Alam.

- Starts school 3rd January.

.:ilyanafauzy signing off 6.22am (GMT +8:00):.

...dusty...

(Fuhh. Fuuuhhh...)

*The sound of me blowing something off..*

Oyeah. That's me blowing the dust off this blog.

I just realized that the traffic to this blog keeps increasing gradually despite me not updating it.

Sorry dear followers. Will try to make it up to you.

Not a promise but I'll try...

Aunty Ilyana. Hihi.

See you soon :~)

Owhhh. And did I tell you? I'm going back to Malaysia for good on the 15th. 

3 days to go...

Excited? Um, well.... 

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Self-update:

- There's not much time left to shrink my size. Hehe. 

.:ilyanafauzy signing off at 12.41pm (GMT +8.00):.

Distancing...

Just some random thoughts...

.:15 November 2011:.

With exactly a month before I leave this unpredictable weathered country...

I'm unsure of what I've achieved.

*Sigh.

Stayed at uni with Jijol till 3am.
It was 12 Celsius and we didn't wear much to keep us warm.

Malaysia's waiting. Australia's shooing.

This enormous gap seems to grow bigger by day.

As if it's never-ending.

You in your world. Me in my world. 

Awkwardness fills in the gap.

Distance changes people.
Relationships changes friendships.
Friends become strangers.
Time changes everything...

Update:

- I'll be having my final exam for my MATH106 tomorrow morning. Wish me luck. I need it.

.:ilyana.fauzy signing off at 09.14pm:.

A Personality Quiz...

I took a personality quiz after being urged by my sisters. My brother took it and it seems interesting. I think I did the same quiz when I was in Form 2 but can't really remember what I answered. So, here's the result...

Picture by Zuhairy Fauzy.

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.


My view on the result?
. I personally think that everything stated above is true. However, not on the views of education. Yes, I believe education is very important but I don't study hard. I'm a super lazy woman, love procrastinating and I don't really deserve to be where I am now.
. Another one is at the final result where I'm mature and reasonable. That is not me when I'm angry. I become irrational. Especially in relationships. 


Update:
- Working on my esaimen. Due: Today.

.:ilyana.fauzy signing off at 1.10pm:.

Iman...

Honestly, my iman's getting weaker by day.

Especially after the Ramadhan is over.

Please pray for my success in this life and the hereafter.

Please, even though I don't know who you are and you don't know who I am...

The weak me.

Nabi bersabda, “Doa seorang muslim untuk saudaranya tanpa sepengetahuannya adalah mustajabah (dikabulkan). Di atas kepalanya ada malaikat penjaga, setiap kali dia mendoakan saudaranya dengan kebaikan maka malaikat penjaga tadi berkata, “Amin dan untukmu yang semisal itu juga.”(HR. Muslim) 

Update:

- Finished performing at MFest. It wasn't that great but it wasn't that bad too.

- Saimen.

.:ilyana.fauzy signing off at 11.14pm:.

miss.love.like.hate

Posted this on my Facebook status and deleted it but decided to place it here since I haven't posted any for 

quite some time.

♥ ♥ When you're being missed by many, loved by a lot, well-liked by a large number and hated by just a few... Please know that few people who hate you may be having trouble seeing your good deeds because of their hatred. Just stay true to yourself and InsyaAllah, everything will be fine because He's with you all the time. Mode: Still learning to forgive and trying to be as sincere as possible to everyone. :~)

Update:

- :~|

.:ilyanafauzy signing off at 4.50PM:.

Fancy juxtapositioning?

Have been replaying two songs on my playlist for a day:

Space-Bound - Eminem

CaliforniaKing Bed -Rihanna

Proximately faraway...

Kekacakan baru bangun tidur :~)
#random

Home alone...

Waiting for the light  at the end of the tunnel right in the face..

Juxtaposition much?

Updates:

- I'm work bound at the moment.

.:ilyanafauzy signing off at 05.15pm:. 

*Ya Allah!!! Tak sedar dah masuk Maghrib.20 minit yang lalu. Boleh berbuka puasa! Alhamdulillah~~~ :~)))

A gamble.

My Facebook status update here:

♥ ♦ ♣ ♠ A gamble. It's currently 9 degrees outside and I'm still struggling in my bed with the notes in front of me when it's already 8.11am. The exam is at 8.50am. Will I make it through? Ya Allah, Ya Tuhan kami, permudahkanlah segala urusan kami pada hari ini. Hanya Engkau yang mampu membantu, hanya kepadaMu kami berserah. Segala apa yang terjadi, berikanlah kami kesenangan dan kekuatan mengharunginya. Amin~ Mode: Honestly, I'm not ready for this. Tawakkal 100%

Update:

- Exam in less than an hour.

- Padan muka. Salah sendiri.

.:ilyanafauzy signing off at 8.17am:.

♥ ♦ ♣ ♠

.:ilyanafauzy signing in at 1.41pm:.

Alhamdulillah the exam was okay although I only managed to study for less than an hour. You think I'm gifted? Think again. Maybe our definition of "Okay" isn't the same. :~)

Just so people know, I only have this one paper to sit for exam which means that I should be in my holiday mood. I've planned to fill this cold winter by hitting the island down under, Tasmania, from the 26th of June. Here's my initial holiday schedule:

• With Jijol:
• 21 July - 25 July : Gold Coast, Queensland, Australia 

• With the Usrah members:
• 26 June - 01 July (9am) : Hobart, Tasmania, Australia

• With Myra, Mira, Faiz, Myra:
• 01 July (10pm) - 2 July : Auckland, New Zealand
• 02 July - 05 July : Rotorua, New Zealand
• 06 July - 08 July : Wellington, New Zealand
• 08 July - 10 July : Christchurch, New Zealand
• 10 July - 12 July : Dunedin, New Zealand
• 12 July - 15 July : Queenstwon, New Zealand

• Alone:
• 15 July - 16 July : Christchurch, New Zealand

• With Azrul and his friends:
• 16 July - 21 July : Melbourne, Australia

• With Hafiz Hazny, Sya, Farah, Min, Afiq
• 23 July : Watching NRL or AFL at the Sydney Cricket Stadium

• With fellow cohortmates:
• 30 July : Dragon boating in I dunno where.

So, that's my initial holiday plan. But it seems macam sentiasa ada problem je with each of the place or date/ Dunno what message Allah's trying to send to me. But I know He knows what's best for me. Here's the later things happened.

• Gold Coast:
• Jijol decided not to go. It was mutual. I felt the same way too. Luckily, we haven't bought the ticket for Gold Coast and cancelled the plan.

• Hobart:
• For Hobart, TAS, K. Nad has bought the return ticket for AUD200 but too bad, I've to cancel that one too due to something that came up quite suddenly that I can't avoid and I can't tell you. It's SUPER IMPORTANT that saya berserah je burn duit ticket macam tu je. Sorry friends. T_T

• New Zealand:
• For New Zealand, I'm very sure of myself that I'm going there but my friends, they're still undecided due to the volcanic ash coming from Chile and the earthquake in Christchurch. Sebenarnya cuak gak tapi the previous two holidays dah cancel, takkan this ticket nak burn jugak?? Tamaooo (T_T)

• Melbourne, NRL/AFL, Dragon boating:
• Up till now, there hasn't been any changes and I hope there will not be any. The NRL/AFL date isn't final yet but I wish that they won't be doing before the 21st. If they're going before that, I've decided to go on my own. Saya okay je :~) Heee.

La Tahzan.

Cannot sad-sad one! Heee

Update mode:

- Seriously, I pray that Allah gives me the strength to carry on and redha with whatever he has in store for me.

.:ilyanafauzy signing off, again, at 2.49pm:.

Catalyst.

I wish, he's not my only catalyst.

Dear God, please give me the strength to carry on...

Update:

- Disappointed with myself.

.:ilyanafauzy signing off at 5.29am:.

Love you more...

"The more you put me through. The more it makes me wanna come back to you. You say you hate me, I just love you more. You don't want me, I just want you more. I buy you flowers, you throw 'em at me. I know it's sad but it's making me happy. The more that you slap me, the more that it turns me on. Because you love me and I love you more"

- Eminem, Love You More (2004) -

Applicable to both friends and enemies.

(That is, if I have any :~))

Cheers.

Update:

- Not just yet.


- Eh, All The Best to Cohort 2 that'll be having their exams tomorrow. Seriously, LING218 is the subject I enjoyed the most compared to the other 3 subjects in my first semester here although sometimes I can't understand the relevance of learning it.

- Layan nie jap before sambung...  http://cursingmalay.blogspot.com/2011/06/18sx-bergadai-untuk-memori-seharimasa.html

.:ilyanafauzy signing off at 06.19pm:.

Suicidal.

This post is dedicated to a dear friend and everyone who feels like they're in a similar situation...

To just give up on life is so easy. It takes a second to take the life out of you and you're calling it a shortcut to end everything so that you can make everyone happy (KONONNYA). But what about the nine months your mother sacrificed just to let you out into this world? And that's excluding the years your parents have/had taken to raise you up... Take a moment to think. Think. Before you do anything stupid, anything that can't be undone.

Self-update:

- Everything happens for a reason. Everything has a solution to it... He's always there for you. InsyaAllah...

.:ilyanafauzy signing off at 03.30am:.

This explains why I was late...

My sister terasa with me because I didn't wish her on her birthday. She thought I forgot. But no, I was working on this. Hope that she'll love it. Spent a few days on this. I'm a slow worker. *Yawn...

Self-update:

- Hmmm.

- Goodnight.

.:ilyanafauzy signing off at  02.09pm:.

Dedicated to Azizul Helmi.

I made a video for Azizul Helmi's birthday in March. Heeee...

 Click on his name for the video.

Alternatively, you can click on this link for the video.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uQlueCruLr0

Okay. I'm done with off-tasking. Back to assignments.

Quick-update:

-Assignmenting. =_="

.:ilyanafauzy signing off at 11.14pm:.

Saya pandai tanak nasi!

THIS WAS POSTED A FEW WEEKS AGO. I DON'T KNOW HOW ON EARTH IT STATES IT'S PUBLISHED 31ST MAY 2011.

Kagum tak dengan headline nie? Kagum tak? Kagum tak?!

WOAH! EXCITED EXCITED EXCITED!!! I just managed to cook rice!!! Woahhhh~!!! Before this, I did this in Malaysia je but since February 2010, I've never bought any rice to cook sebab tak makan nasi sangat here. Kalau beli pun, instant je. Heee. So, I never had the chance to cook the rice on my own. But just now, I just felt the urge to do it and I did it! Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~!

Nasi sudah masak.

FIRST ATTEMPT: WIN!

YAYYYYYYYYYYYY!

DAH TAU MASAK NASI,

DAH BOLEH KAHWIN!

ABAH, SAYA MAU KAHWIN?

HEEEEEEE~

Update tentang diri:

- Everyone's sleeping already. Hmmm.

.:ilyanafauzy signing off at 0126am:.

My feelings, mine to feel.

When I'm happy...

I'll say it out loud.

You don't have to feel like I'm mocking your sadness.

Borrowed Farah's Bowie

When I'm sad...

I'll try my best to hide it with a long-lasting smile...

A fake smile made after 4 nights in a row of crying,
 approaching Mother's Day. I miss her.
(Thank you Ain Julia for the picture.)

You don't have to bring yourself down just to say... "I feel you."

I'll get a lot more irritated.

Your feelings is yours and my feelings is mine.

(Selalu teringat ayat Mr. Teoh, my grammar lecturer during my foundation years. He said "feelings" cannot be plural although there's an S there although I still feel like I should be using "are" instead of "is". Hurmmm)

Quick update:

- Assignment.

- I just figured out I'll fail this semester. Boo me.

.:ilyanafauzy signing off at 02.55pm:.

All I'm asking for is...

"I'm not asking you to change. I just want you to do what a lover should have done."

-IlyanaFauzy, 2011-

♥

A post made after having a small discussion with a dear girlfriend. 
A message to all lovers out there.
Men and women.

A reminder to myself.

Self-update:

- Assignment.

- And thank you FiZi for being a wonderful lover. Sorry if I'm not being the good girl I'm supposed to be but I do know that I love you. Please remind me whenever you think I'm getting off the track. :~)

.:ilyanafauzy signing off at 09.38pm:.

Clumsiness led to frustration.

Struggling... Struggling... Struggling. And YAY! A video is made within 5 hours. And before that, I was planning on what to do for my Microteaching Presentation. After getting the suggestion from FiZi, to make a feart-shaped origami, I was thinking of ways how to make it more creative and engaging for the learners. And I came up with this video. Well, it's not much since I only took a few hours to do it but this is what happens when you take your work to the eleventh hour.

Normally, my classmates created power point presentations but I decided to make this video since PP usually takes a lot more of my time and also, since my presentation is the last for this semester, I wanted to do something different. 

Butttt. During the presentation, I did not know what went wrong with the sound system and yes, the whole class watched without any sound. I was totally frustrated throughout the presentation but I don't know who's at fault. Not that I was trying to blame anyone but I just couldn't see what went wrong back then!

My frustration turned into anger and disappointment and sadness and I don't know what else to describe it when.... The moment I sat at my seat, I saw my volume is muted. MUTED. YES. MUTED. Oh My God...

Balik tu menangis. Entah apa-apa lah kan... Why am I so clumsy?

CONGRATULATIONS BARCA ON YOUR WINNING! :~)))

Worth watching and lupakan assignment sebentar. Heee.

Self-update:

- Submissions for next week:

• A 3000-word essay. (Monday)
• A 1500-word essay. (Thursday)
• A 1000-word reflection. (Wednesday)
• A poster.

-Can I make it on time? InsyaAllah... Positif sudaaa.

- I need to sleep! Tak tidur lagi nieh.

-Oh, saya mengidam nasi lemak. Saya sanggup beli AUD5. Masakkan. Please? :~(

.:ilyanafauzy signing off at 10.39am:.

Hello family!

After not calling home for more than 2 weeks, (excluding Skype calls)... I received 4 wonderful news from abah.

1. Elli just placed herself in Institut Perguruan Bahasa Antarabangsa (IPBA) for her TESL course (macam saya!) Thank you everyone for making this possible. Elli, I love you :~))) (If you read this, takyah nak perasan sangat okayh!)

2. Ilya is at home in Shah Alam! Weee. Orang Ireland balik tanah air!

3. Abah's CML contract with someone is at the final stage of being approved.

4. Zuhairy has owned a car.

Bb and Zayyani...? Well, am sure they're up to something. However...

...abah said that he's sleepy and want to get some sleep. So, tak mau lah tanya lebih-lebih. He needs to get some rest. Oops! Sorry abah for disturbing your sleeping process. Heee. And Ilya is downstairs washing the dishes. Oh! Having Ilya at home means having someone to regularly cook the meals for the family. Unlike when I'm back home dulu. Haha. Sorry dear family.

Dari semakin hilang semangat menuntut ilmu di negara orang...

...terus menjadi gigih belajar pabila mendengar berita gembira!

Alhamdulillah.

Owh yess. And thanx FiZi for the suggestions on what I should do for my microteaching. Although you didn't really know the context and have no idea of what this is... You came up with some brilliant ideas. Thank you.

Self-update:

- And... Back to the assignments!

.:ilyanafauzy signing off at 0355pm:.

Feed a song to your soul.

Do you have any particular nasyid that you love hearing to, no matter what time of the day it is...?

Maher Zain's and Raihan's songs would probably trigger in your mind. But nope, not me. (No offence.)

Here's mine. Enjoy yourself :~)

I'm taking the video with the lyrics so that this song is a lot more understandable to most and perhaps, it would give a bigger impact to your heart. Who knows? InsyaAllah.

:~)

Self-update:

- Have to wake up early tomorrow since there'll be a house inspection early in the morning.

- Will be going to the gym at 11am.

- Sisters, let's go to the surau at 2pm tomorrow for a halaqah session. The topic is "Death".

.:ilyanafauzy signing off at 0222:.

(0222 definitely reminds me of Halis, The Joker.)