BiJi. BiJi. BiJi. Guwa biji bebeno. Pehe dop?

Updated status on Facebook:



   Dearest mama, guess what? Teachers' Day dah dekattt! I hope you're here to witness this. Heee. Call ma sbb nak cerita excited sambut Hari Guru first time nieee. AS A TEACHER! HOW COOL IS THAT?! Heeeeeeeeee. Dear God, because of You... I'm smiling. Alhamdulillah. Hoping I get to finish those secretarial work by tomorrow or hm..., next week. Kinda been working 7 days a week for a few months now. Who say teachers work half day only maa? Back at 3, 4, 5 and sometimes at 6. At home, continue working. Punch in at 7:15 in the morning regardless the total hours. *Yawnnn* OT? What's that? Tak wujud dalam kamus seorang guru. Not complaining (tipuuuu jee!!! hee. but yeah, not complaining that much lah :~x ) Anddd very happy I don't get that many chance to sleep after Asar. :~D Am still very new to teaching. Tak cukup setahun lagi pun. Still a lot heading my way and am ready to learn! I smile most of the time (in and out of the school compound), I make friends with the children, we joke around like buddies do, I am surrounded with very helpful and supportive colleagues and loved ones... I just can't ask for anything more, can I? I wonder how my friends, in this same great profession, scattered all over Malaysia, are doing :~))) Wishing my dear friends who are teachers too, a VERY HAPPY VERY HAPPY VERY HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY! Heee. An early HTD wish. How much longer will I stay a teacher? Wallahualam. Good night!

But then... I realize:

- This is too personal to be placed on Facebook.

- It will be on the News Feed. Macam menyemak jeee status pepanjang camnie kat NF orang padahal takdak kaitan dengan depa pun. Sian pulop.

- Nobody cares anyway. Duuuhhh.

So, I decided to move it here. Haha. Why? Because, this is my own personal space. Only those who care enough will read this. People choose to click or visit blogs but on FB's NF, everything's stuck there even when people tak nak tengok pun. Heee. So, here it is lah kan. Pap! Terpampang di blog ini. Gosh, I miss her. Dah tak balik rumah lama dah nie padahal dulu, tiap minggu balik. Okay. Dah taburkan  muntahkan luahkan isi hati kat sini. Boleh tdoq dah. Hehe. Guten nacht!  

Maafkan patik, gambar tidak memberangsangkan.
Sedang kejar masa nie.  *run chase time*
k lame.

In case you don't understand the title of this post disebabkan penggunaan bahasa berkarat, it's "Busy. Busy. Busy. Very busy. Do you understand?" Taa~

Update:

- Busyyyyyyyy!

- Despite the busyness, I still try to make time for people (tak semua lah sbb x semua schedule free sama).

- Butttt, tu lah. Kalau ada orang tgk kita happy sikit, keluarlah ayat, "Eh, dia macam x de kje je.",  "Eeee, senangnyaa jadi cikgu." ... dan bermacam lagi lah. Haha. Tolak tepi semua itu dan terus pekakkan diri. Cobaaannnn. 

.:ilyanafauzy signing off at 3:45AM (GMT +08:00):.

Just maybe...

Maybe it's not that I don't understand.

Maybe I just refuse to understand.

Maybe...

State of denial.

It can happen to YOU.

.:ilyanafauzy signing off at 3.45am (GMT +08:00):.

Fancy juxtapositioning?

Have been replaying two songs on my playlist for a day:

Space-Bound - Eminem

CaliforniaKing Bed -Rihanna

Proximately faraway...

Kekacakan baru bangun tidur :~)
#random

Home alone...

Waiting for the light  at the end of the tunnel right in the face..

Juxtaposition much?

Updates:

- I'm work bound at the moment.

.:ilyanafauzy signing off at 05.15pm:. 

*Ya Allah!!! Tak sedar dah masuk Maghrib.20 minit yang lalu. Boleh berbuka puasa! Alhamdulillah~~~ :~)))

A gamble.

My Facebook status update here:

♥ ♦ ♣ ♠ A gamble. It's currently 9 degrees outside and I'm still struggling in my bed with the notes in front of me when it's already 8.11am. The exam is at 8.50am. Will I make it through? Ya Allah, Ya Tuhan kami, permudahkanlah segala urusan kami pada hari ini. Hanya Engkau yang mampu membantu, hanya kepadaMu kami berserah. Segala apa yang terjadi, berikanlah kami kesenangan dan kekuatan mengharunginya. Amin~ Mode: Honestly, I'm not ready for this. Tawakkal 100%

Update:

- Exam in less than an hour.

- Padan muka. Salah sendiri.

.:ilyanafauzy signing off at 8.17am:.

♥ ♦ ♣ ♠

.:ilyanafauzy signing in at 1.41pm:.

Alhamdulillah the exam was okay although I only managed to study for less than an hour. You think I'm gifted? Think again. Maybe our definition of "Okay" isn't the same. :~)

Just so people know, I only have this one paper to sit for exam which means that I should be in my holiday mood. I've planned to fill this cold winter by hitting the island down under, Tasmania, from the 26th of June. Here's my initial holiday schedule:

• With Jijol:
• 21 July - 25 July : Gold Coast, Queensland, Australia 

• With the Usrah members:
• 26 June - 01 July (9am) : Hobart, Tasmania, Australia

• With Myra, Mira, Faiz, Myra:
• 01 July (10pm) - 2 July : Auckland, New Zealand
• 02 July - 05 July : Rotorua, New Zealand
• 06 July - 08 July : Wellington, New Zealand
• 08 July - 10 July : Christchurch, New Zealand
• 10 July - 12 July : Dunedin, New Zealand
• 12 July - 15 July : Queenstwon, New Zealand

• Alone:
• 15 July - 16 July : Christchurch, New Zealand

• With Azrul and his friends:
• 16 July - 21 July : Melbourne, Australia

• With Hafiz Hazny, Sya, Farah, Min, Afiq
• 23 July : Watching NRL or AFL at the Sydney Cricket Stadium

• With fellow cohortmates:
• 30 July : Dragon boating in I dunno where.

So, that's my initial holiday plan. But it seems macam sentiasa ada problem je with each of the place or date/ Dunno what message Allah's trying to send to me. But I know He knows what's best for me. Here's the later things happened.

• Gold Coast:
• Jijol decided not to go. It was mutual. I felt the same way too. Luckily, we haven't bought the ticket for Gold Coast and cancelled the plan.

• Hobart:
• For Hobart, TAS, K. Nad has bought the return ticket for AUD200 but too bad, I've to cancel that one too due to something that came up quite suddenly that I can't avoid and I can't tell you. It's SUPER IMPORTANT that saya berserah je burn duit ticket macam tu je. Sorry friends. T_T

• New Zealand:
• For New Zealand, I'm very sure of myself that I'm going there but my friends, they're still undecided due to the volcanic ash coming from Chile and the earthquake in Christchurch. Sebenarnya cuak gak tapi the previous two holidays dah cancel, takkan this ticket nak burn jugak?? Tamaooo (T_T)

• Melbourne, NRL/AFL, Dragon boating:
• Up till now, there hasn't been any changes and I hope there will not be any. The NRL/AFL date isn't final yet but I wish that they won't be doing before the 21st. If they're going before that, I've decided to go on my own. Saya okay je :~) Heee.

La Tahzan.

Cannot sad-sad one! Heee

Update mode:

- Seriously, I pray that Allah gives me the strength to carry on and redha with whatever he has in store for me.

.:ilyanafauzy signing off, again, at 2.49pm:.

Love you more...

"The more you put me through. The more it makes me wanna come back to you. You say you hate me, I just love you more. You don't want me, I just want you more. I buy you flowers, you throw 'em at me. I know it's sad but it's making me happy. The more that you slap me, the more that it turns me on. Because you love me and I love you more"

- Eminem, Love You More (2004) -

Applicable to both friends and enemies.

(That is, if I have any :~))

Cheers.

Update:

- Not just yet.


- Eh, All The Best to Cohort 2 that'll be having their exams tomorrow. Seriously, LING218 is the subject I enjoyed the most compared to the other 3 subjects in my first semester here although sometimes I can't understand the relevance of learning it.

- Layan nie jap before sambung...  http://cursingmalay.blogspot.com/2011/06/18sx-bergadai-untuk-memori-seharimasa.html

.:ilyanafauzy signing off at 06.19pm:.

Suicidal.

This post is dedicated to a dear friend and everyone who feels like they're in a similar situation...

To just give up on life is so easy. It takes a second to take the life out of you and you're calling it a shortcut to end everything so that you can make everyone happy (KONONNYA). But what about the nine months your mother sacrificed just to let you out into this world? And that's excluding the years your parents have/had taken to raise you up... Take a moment to think. Think. Before you do anything stupid, anything that can't be undone.

Self-update:

- Everything happens for a reason. Everything has a solution to it... He's always there for you. InsyaAllah...

.:ilyanafauzy signing off at 03.30am:.

Clumsiness led to frustration.

Struggling... Struggling... Struggling. And YAY! A video is made within 5 hours. And before that, I was planning on what to do for my Microteaching Presentation. After getting the suggestion from FiZi, to make a feart-shaped origami, I was thinking of ways how to make it more creative and engaging for the learners. And I came up with this video. Well, it's not much since I only took a few hours to do it but this is what happens when you take your work to the eleventh hour.

Normally, my classmates created power point presentations but I decided to make this video since PP usually takes a lot more of my time and also, since my presentation is the last for this semester, I wanted to do something different. 

Butttt. During the presentation, I did not know what went wrong with the sound system and yes, the whole class watched without any sound. I was totally frustrated throughout the presentation but I don't know who's at fault. Not that I was trying to blame anyone but I just couldn't see what went wrong back then!

My frustration turned into anger and disappointment and sadness and I don't know what else to describe it when.... The moment I sat at my seat, I saw my volume is muted. MUTED. YES. MUTED. Oh My God...

Balik tu menangis. Entah apa-apa lah kan... Why am I so clumsy?

CONGRATULATIONS BARCA ON YOUR WINNING! :~)))

Worth watching and lupakan assignment sebentar. Heee.

Self-update:

- Submissions for next week:

• A 3000-word essay. (Monday)
• A 1500-word essay. (Thursday)
• A 1000-word reflection. (Wednesday)
• A poster.

-Can I make it on time? InsyaAllah... Positif sudaaa.

- I need to sleep! Tak tidur lagi nieh.

-Oh, saya mengidam nasi lemak. Saya sanggup beli AUD5. Masakkan. Please? :~(

.:ilyanafauzy signing off at 10.39am:.

Earth Hour and jealousy and... YIKES~!!

Clock shows 8.30pm. This conversation takes place.

Roommate: Aza, do you need the lights?

Me           : Eh, nope. Why?

Roommate: Nah... Just wanna switch it off.

Me           :  (Looks at the lappy's clock)

                   Owh! Earth hour. Starts at 8.30 ey?

Roommate: Yup.

I look somewhat handsome in the dark! Heee

(Then, go tweet tweet on twitter...)

See Ikhwan Hafidz posts this on twitter ""best gila main switch tutup lampu kat youtube ahaha"" and he says that's only for today since it's the Earth Hour day. And so, I go YouTubing and play the switch as well. Hee. Thanx Wan for the info!

When the lights are on...

And when you switch off the lights

by clicking the switch button at the top left corner, next to the title.

(Please click picture above for better view)

So, if you haven't played with the switch, go lah switch it on off on off on off. Once in a year okay! Grab this opportunity. Haha.

Update tentang diri:

- Wuu. Saya takut gelap. But since I'm an environMENTAList, what's wrong with being in the dark for an hour kan? :~)

- Skyping with little sister who just got back from her Eurotrip. Wuuu. JEALOUS LOT LOT ONEEE.!

Little sis and younger sis

with me in between

♥

.:ilyana fauzy signing off at 2050:.

!!!!!!OMG!!!!!!

Wait, wait..!

BULU BULUUUUU~!!!

Okay. Something just happened!!! BULU BULUUUUU~!!! RUNNNN~!

Just when I was about to publish this post, something wriggled at the bottom corner of my laptop. OMG OMG OMG. What's that?! I freaked out...! "LIPAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" I screamed and shouted at Farah that instance to switch on the lights. (Sorry Farah for ruining your Earth Hour. Wuuu).

Once the room was filled with lights, I said, "There!!! The lipan! Takut Farah...!" Farah rushed over and she said... "Laaaaa. Ingatkan nampak hantu. Ulat bulu rupanya... Our house was attacked by this thing la last year..." Okay. Malu di situ tatau beza ulat bulu dan lipan. Tapi kan, I've seen ulat bulu before and they looked different. Wuuu. Mata saya tabetol ke? Ulat bulu banyak jenis kot. Tapi kan, saya tak pernah tengok lipan. Camna saya tau rupa lipan tu pun saya tatau.

Anyway, let me show you guys that thing. Enjoy the pictures!

Urghhh~!

Euwwww~!

Yuckieeee~!!!!!!

Where the so-called lipan meets its tragic end.
RIP

The moral of the story, don't come and bother me or else, you'll end up in the bowl. Huahuahua.

Update tentang diri:

- Takut, geli, teringat ular, waaa! Nak nanges :"~(

- That thing reminds me of a snake. Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~!!!

(This post mengantoikan diri bahawa laptop saya tidak di switch off power source nya.)

.:ilyana fauzy signing off, again, at 2129:.

(Another minute, the Earth Hour will be over but I ruined it for about 5 minutes. Haih.)

Cerita di suatu petang...

I was busy searching through my files and folders when I suddenly terjerit sorang sorang dalam bilik sebab ternampak gambar nieh. OPTUS! (Mind you, this is my new way of swearing ;~))

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(After 88 dots...)

Ngan gambar sendiri pun cuak padahal tademende pun. Hadoyaiii...

4PM

If no one wakes me up, I wake 4pm daily. Today woke up at 4.49pm and I missed:

1. An invitation to Nick's house. Nick is my driver. Okay. OUR driver. My friends and I who live in Parramatta have this shuttle driver which is more like a friend and a dad. Thanx Nick! But I missed the invitation coz I overslept.
2. An invitation to Nisya's house. A friend that invite me and a few others to eat at her house because she's bored being alone. Darn. Should've waken up earlier.

When I can pray (solat) later, this won't happen anymore :(

: Just so you know, Maghrib is at 4.56pm here. So, everytime I wake up, I can only see the day for less than an hour if I continue waking up like this...
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Edit: 8.28PM

Just read my Wall Posts on Facebook again. Darn. Malu. Sya Mansor sent this to me:

"Aza, Nisya ajak pergi rumah dia. me & Masu plan nak pergi 4pm today dengan Nick :)"

 Don't blame me. I was half awake when reading this message. I thought, the messages reads "Aza, Nick ajak pergi rumah dia. me & Masu plan nak pergi 4pm today dengan Nick :)"

 So, cancel the first thing I missed :P It's actually only no 2.

Period and drinks

It's 2.30am here and I'm watching the replay of England vs Slovenia match although I've just watched the live play. I accepted Myra's invitation to join her eat "cucur bawang" at Hafiz's house. I bring my sugar-free green tea along. That's when Myra tells me that green tea's not good for my health if I drink it while having period. I never knew that. Unconvinced, I googled it and found this article.

Click here--> :-( <--Click here

The result, it's true. I shouldn't drink green tea when I'm having my period. Too bad. I have four favourite drinks but I can only drink three here which are "Cincau", Vanilla Coke and green tea. But cincau, it's hard to get it because I need to buy it at the Asian store whilst I can get VCoke anywhere I go. Green tea? I'm very lazy to get outta my bed just to boil the water. So, my main drink here is VCoke (besides the tap water of course).

My other fav drink is hot barley. I get easily irritated when I go and order at the mamak for hot barley but they give me a warm one. They're lucky if I don't yell at them. Oh yes, I'm very hot tempered when it comes to ordering at restaurants, especially fast food outlets and mamaks. How I wish I could be cool enough  instead of getting angry all of a sudden. Haihs.

Unlucky me.

I've been quite unlucky for the past few weeks.

At the moment, I've to submit a 2000-word essay another couple of hours and I've only 158 words. Just started it. Aiyo.

My finger hurts very much. It's like there's a cut there but I see none. Oh this dry weather.

Man, I've gotta continue my essay. Will post bout the unlucky incidents later, IF I have time.

Owh, just to let u know, my essay's bout Hip Hop dance. Dang~!

Peace out~