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Tuesday, November 11, 2008

After a year and a half struggling to survive in this institute, I finally reached one of the most important point in my life where I have to take my examination for my foundation course here. I would not say that it was a great one but I did feel so when I answered the first two papers. The next two were a disaster. Ah, how I wish I could go back in time and resit the examination all over again. The thing I fear the most is that I will disappoint my parents who I believe have put their trust in me. I fear that I will crush the world onto them as I'm afraid that I'll get low marks in my examination :( Apart from that, IF (a BIG 'if' here) I fail these papers, I will not get the chance to pursue my studies and be a teacher. It's such a waste when after studying 1.5 years here, I'll just leave this institute because of my failures. Damn, I'm scared now. It's not a matter of going overseas or not. I don't mind that much as I've been there before. Maybe if it's United Kingdom or New Zealand, I'll be excited to go. But Australia? I wanna go there for two reasons then. To study, of course and to meet my foster family over there (IF they still remember me. Haha). Another reason why I don't mind that much of going to Australia is because my parents put high hope on me as they wanted me to take my degree in B. Ed TESL in the United Kingdom but when the result came out, I was a HUGE disappointment to them :( How again, I wish I could turn back the time.

If only I could...

8 comments:

Naz said...

Geez...
U are sophisticated..
Neway thanks for dropping by..
Where are you studying anyway?

Ilyana Fauzy said...

'U are sophisticated'... What makes u say so..? Or izzit, just the title up there? (I wonder...) :)

Studying? Lemme go to ur profile n drop a comment there. ",

Naz said...

At first yeah, from the title up there.. Such a catchy title..
But the title really does reflects the content of whatever things we wrote with the feelings when we wrote it..

Thats why it is the title..
Way up there, a keyword that reflects everythings in it..

From your way of writing,
the choice of words you use,
it shows u r a sophisticated girl.. =)

Heeeee ~

Ilyana Fauzy said...

It reflects the content? OMG~ I'm flattered ;)

Seriously, thanx a lot:D

dancing queen♥ said...

erm.. shud i speak english? kih kih kih.. btw, B. ed TESL ha? erm, bagos2. ade peluang untuk memberitahu student anda "saye dlu ade blog! jom2 tgk blog saye" or u should translate them. kihkihkih..if i were u, i'll do it (untuk meramaikan ahli2 jemaah). and i will do it, if and only if i bejaye untuk jadi cikgu sains! :D good luck! we're gonna do our bachelor's degree next year (if i'm not mistaken). *chill*

Ilyana Fauzy said...

Yup. Will be in degree next yr:) Hope so. Dn worry. It doesn't matter whether ure speaking english or malay, as long as I understand, it's fair enough :)

Anonymous said...

btol2...
sy pun kuciwa xdpt teach secondary school :P

Ilyana Fauzy said...

We're the same:(

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