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Monday, February 6, 2017

Soalan lazim.

Wahhhh. Ada masa sikit update blog. Yay!

Jap. Nak tengok post lama. WOWWWW! 2015. Terskip setahun sehhh. Power waaa isi masa dengan aktiviti aktiviti yang menarik. Haha. Kalau lepas lepas nie ada masa lagi nak mengarang menulis menyajak bagai... I'll do that soon. Dok enjoy life sampai teknik nak mengarang pun dah berkarat. Haha.

Post hari nie adalah berkaitan dengan salah satu dari beribu juta soalan common murid. Ha. Lepas nie, kalau ada peluang bertanya sana sini sikit kat member member cikgu lain, boleh buat post pasal nie lagi. Okay. Without further ado...


Edited from the cartoon below.

If I get this kinda question, I used to respond, "Taklah. Sambung tulis atas meja je. Nak tulis kat baju kawan sebelah boleh jugak." But last year, I read somewhere, 'sebagai guru atau ibu bapa, jangan sesekali jawab soalan murid/anak dengan sindiran atau perlian'. 

Therefore, I changed my style. Setiap kali ditanya soalan sebegini, saya hanya perlu melemparkan renungan tajam saya dan mereka faham. Kalau diorang tak faham pun, akan ada kawan yang tegur atau tolong jawabkan. Ha. Senang lagi gitu.

I still don't know how to be the kind of teacher I was before (prior to 2015), the fun and cheerful me. I miss that. Dengan students pun boleh bergurau senda macam member, lagi-lagi kalau kat luar kelas. Kalau ada masalah ke apa, memang diorang berani cerita sebab the trust is there and diorang suka mintak pendapat. Dalam kelas pulak, they know the boundaries. Sangat best perasaannya masa muda mudi sikit tu.

Sekarang nie, bengis je kerjanya. Pernah jugak tercalon dalam anugerah cikgu paling garang (sbb pnh jadi tukang kira undi masa tu. Second highest vote after Cikgu Ibrahim yg memang berturut-turut tak pernah lepas takhta dari anugerah tu) and I kinda love-hate that title. Suka sebab the kids mmg sangat dgr cakap. Tak cakap pun xpe dah sebab diorang automatic diam kalau tetiba nampak masa dok main. Tak suka pulak sebab kekadang buat lawak dalam kelas pun, depa tak berani nak gelak atau macam muka 'haa teacher cuba buat lawak ke.' Hm. Tak best woh. Perasaan dia macam kita nie musuh diorang ke eh. Diorang diam dan dgr cakap sebab takut je ke. Bkn sebab respect ke. Bila nampak budak problematic semacam, tanya apa masalah dia pun, tak berani nak bgtau. Tak best. Memang tak best.

Pernah tetiba kena relief kelas yang tak pernah masuk and I didn't even know sorang murid pun dalam tu. First thing I heard was, a girl whispered (bisik stail budak-budak nie, tak macam bisik sangat pun) to her friend, "Eh, diamlah. Aku dengar, cikgu nie garang gila." Haaa... Bila pandang dia, terus dia tunduk, tak pandang kita langsung dah sampailah habis tiga puluh minit relief tu. Fuh.

Hm. Masih tercari-cari identiti diri. How to change aa. I tried but... Entohhh. Bila masuk kelas je, mulut tetiba tak reti senyum. Pelik kan. Okaylah. Bye.

Nie yang ori.
En. Kazim - Utusan

Monday, December 7, 2015

December. The month of...


Post kali nie tak rasa cam nak main paint pulak. Nak tulis je. Heee.


...


A week before my birthday, Mdm Rovena called and told me I flunked my exam. I knew I did bad. 


7th December 2009. 

I resat for my exam. After the exam, I felt lonely. Iwa came from Perlis to accompany me that day. We spent the day at Queensbay Mall. Thank you, dear girlfriend. 

22 days later,

mama passed away.

...


12th December 2014.

Taweeeeeennnnnn~!!!! Yippeeeeeee~!!!!


13th December 2014.

Majlis tawen. Hoyeah! Habis sudaaa.

...


6th December 2015.

I should have held my first baby today. Not many knew about this. But yeah, I lost my first baby some time in May. Can't imagine people yang dah ada anak and the child meninggal. Sedangkan yang baru dua bulan bertapak dalam perut pun dah sob sob. Thank God FiZi's always there to support me. Honestly, the news of us losing the baby seemed to hit him harder than me. He tried to hide away the sadness and kept giving me motivational words (Hee. Presiden PRS lah katakann...). But I think those were rather self-convincing words. 

What hurt us wasn't the baby's passing but how the doctors treated the matter. I bled for three weeks. On the first day of the bleeding, Hospital Selayang simply gave a two-week appointment. We went to Pusat Pakar Rawatan Islam Kg. Baru and the doctor tak percaya that I was pregnant till FiZi showed her the scan we did a week earlier at Klinik Sri Indah, Selayang Jaya (The doctor wasn't in. Sebab tu tak g situ. But that was our favourite clinic kalau doctor tu ada. Now fav clinic kitorg is Klinik Mutiara, Prima Gombak.) Tu pun, doc kat PPRI Kg. Baru tu dok tanya macam macam. Yg tak relevan. "Konfem ke mengandung? Camne konfemkan? Klinik mana awak g? Sebelum tu cek tak kat rumah? Bila cek tu, mmg confirm positive ke? Kalau positive tu, maksudnya ada dua jalur. Awak dua jalur ke? Bila scan tu awak nampak ke baby?" And so on... Ergh. Tanya macam ape je... Dengan nada yang macam nak halau tuu... Entah lah kalau tu memang prosedur kan. But we didn't like the way she talked to us. Kasar semacam. Macam kitorang nie tak kawen lagi je. Maybe jugak because I wasn't wearing my wedding ring but still! Patient ko jugak kott.. Tak kisah lah ko nak pikir apa punnn. (I dislike wearing jewelries especially while doing daily activities. Pnh sehari pakai, terus kemek cincin tu. Terus tak pakai dah unless g events. Tu pun tak selalu. Hee).  Dia scan, tengok takde pape. There was nothing. Sac pun takde. Mcm blank screen pun ada jugak. Hoho. Serious pelik sebab before tu, scan kat another clinic, ada je something there. Then, we came out of the consultation room dengan perasaan tak puas hati but none of us said anything. We were nervous with the outcome. We just held each other's hands while waiting for the bill. Lepas g tempat yg macam pakar gila tuuu (they charged us RM252, the most expensive bill we've received banding dgn 3 lagi klinik private kitorang g. Yang lain semua bawah RM100. DEF NOT WORTH IT WITH THE WAY THE DOC TREATED US AND MENUNGGU SAMPAI 2 HOURS), dalam kereta, FiZi started comforting me. Maybe sbb sunyi sepi je kot suasana. I felt nothing. Empty. Not happy nor was I sad. Completely nothing. Tak tau nak rasa apa.

The next day, macam semangat gila nak masak masak. Masa potong potong bawang ke apa tah, tetiba rasa lain macam. Takde pun sakit apa. I went to the toilet nak cek, there it was. It was like a lump of meat, no blood, nothing else. Just that. My baby dah keluar. Huwaaa. Babyyy... Why you no wait and stay stronggg?? But lepas tu, dah lega. At least the bleeding stopped. I happily (sbb takde tertanya tanya dah kenapa bleeding berpanjangan) showed it to FiZi. He just smiled and turned on his silent mode. I knew he was heartbroken.

Sorry sayang. I know you never blamed me for what happened but the doctor said, maybe because I kept on kerja and acted like nothing's going on padahal I was bleeding down there and that went on for three weeks. I told close friends about it only and the PKs had no idea I was gonna lose my first baby. I know why you're being overprotective and tegas gila suruh inform PK untuk bagi kelonggaran tugasan (Kurikulum for academic purposes and Koko because I was Ketua Rumah Sukan) and ikut cakap doctor (MC seminggu) when I started bleeding masa second pregnancy although saya berdegil nak kerja jugak sebab byk kerja dok tunggu kat skola. I'll always remember what the doctor said, "Saya bagi MC. Ikut awak kalau nak kerja jugak. Tapi awak kena fikir. Sayang kerja lebih atau sayang baby?" That sentence reminded me about what happened a few months ago. Fuh. Tak sanggup. And I became the good girl yang bedridden kat rumah tunggu je awak balik kerja. Hee. Imma good wife! And am gonna be a great mother! 


7th December 2015.

Celebrating my birthday alone on our bed. Wish FiZi had applied for leave today and spent the day with his wife. Your presence means a lot, sayang. Even if it's just cuddling in bed all day long. But I get it. Kalau tak g kerja, lagi laaa stress phone awak asyik dok bunyi sebab orang carik (I know this because this had happened plenty of times when you called in sick and memang tak larat nak g kerja). Haha. Takpelah. Nanti balik, nak birthday card please! (Hope you read this before coming home.)

And so, I googled this.

But most of em require me to use the car and go somewhere.
Huwaaa. Cannot lorhhh.


29th December 2015.

Mama left us 6 years ago. Al-fatihah.

Wednesday, April 22, 2015

Phew.



Hold your head up high. And smile.
Be thankful.

Update:
- Waiting for FiZi to come home. Heeeeee

.:ilyanafauzy signing off at 1619 (GMT +08:00):.

Friday, February 13, 2015

13 February 2015



13 February 2015.

"Ada apa dengan tarikh?" kata mereka.

Well, exactly 10 years ago was the moment we decided to take our friendship to a new level. It was 2005. I was in Form 4 and he was in Form 5. He never had a girlfriend. So, I assumed that he only liked me because I cared for him a lil more than other girls do. Alhamdulillah, the relationship still continued after we finished school.

I still remember. Ten years ago, some time when I was in Form 4. I was in the toilet doing what people normally do when they're in one. That time, dah fikir dah. Kalau tawen dengan dia nie, pernah dengar orang kata afdhal hari Jumaat. So, that time, I scrolled through my (mother's) 3310...

Image result for 3310 green
The legendary phone

And searched for the closest 13 February that falls on a Friday. "Ah, sudah... Takkan Februari 2009 kottt? Aku baru 19 tahun kot. Tak mungkin mabah bagi kawen masa belajar lagi." So, I went on scrolling for the next one. "Whatttt..?? 2015 nanti? Gilo. 10 tahun tuuuuuu! Tak sanggup. Tak sangguppp. Ah, takpelah. Que Sera Sera..." 

Don't worry.
Saya tak segila itu untuk kira semua nie.
I used http://www.timeanddate.com/date/duration.html
Hehe.
Alhamdulillah, on the 12th of December, a day and two months ago, dengan sekali lafaz, "Saya terima nikahnya Mohd Norhafizi bin Abdullah dengan mas kahwinnya RM300. Sah? Sah." saya selamat bergelar isteri kepada Mohd Norhafizi bin Abdullah. Oh-so-cliche. 

We've gone through the ups and downs of life zaman sebelum kahwin dulu. He has put up with a lot of my nonsense. I'm really really really grateful to have him as my husband. If people ask me, "So, amacam kawen?" I can only answer, "Bestttt sangat!" No words can actually describe how thankful I am to Allah for allowing me to be with him and to FiZi for taking me as his wife. All I can say is, best sangat! :~)

Biaq pi lah depa nak kata:

"Eleh, baru kawen. Tunggu lah nanti dah dua tiga tahun."
"Alaaa. Takde anak lagi boleh lah nak sweet sweet."

Dan lain lain. Whatever. Cuba jangan unhappy kan orang kalau dah life korang tak happy sangat. Let's enjoy this life and the wonderfulness of having each other. Jangan nak spoil sangat mood kita. I'm not saying that our relationship won't turn sour or we won't experience langsung bersedih duka lara bagai tu. No... Kita pun takde jaminan what will happen in the future kan. But... Instead of telling me the downsides of marriages that you guys have gone through, cuba doakan kebahagiaan kitorang. InsyaAllah korang pun akan dapat rasa kebahagiaannya. *Hihi. Emo jap. Maaf ye.

The best part of this marriage that he's a lot sweeter and more understanding and turns into a very romantic person and I'm happy dia tak tunjuk sangat sweetness tu kat orang lain and and and... Eee banyak sangat lah! Hihi. I need not go into details of other stuff about this relationship. I think, all lovers have their own indescribable feelings lepas tawen. Kalau nak tau rasanya camne, tawen lah! ;~) 

THANK YOU LOVE FOR THE TEN YEARS YOU'VE BEEN A PATIENT, WONDERFUL, SUPPORTIVE, SWEET, CUTE, CHARMING, ANNOYING AND ALL OF THE GOODS AND BADS MIXED IN YOU. THANK YOU!

 Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah.

*Update:
. Currently waiting for FiZi to arrive. Waiting at school. In the rain. Eh, ada bumbung lah. Hehe. He's from KJ. Jem teghok hari Jumaat nieee bak ang!

.:ilyanafauzy signing off at 20:02 (GMT +08:00):.

Thursday, September 18, 2014

Coliseum. 1921.

Been wanting to step into that cafe.
Over and over again.
Like we used to.
When everyone was there.

Soon. Real soon.

Coliseum, our once-upon-a-time family's favourite steakhouse.

Update:
- Work waiting to be completed. The same routine. Boring.

.:ilyana.fauzy signing off at 01:01 a.m. (GMT +08:00)

Saturday, May 3, 2014

BiJi. BiJi. BiJi. Guwa biji bebeno. Pehe dop?

Updated status on Facebook:



   Dearest mama, guess what? Teachers' Day dah dekattt! I hope you're here to witness this. Heee. Call ma sbb nak cerita excited sambut Hari Guru first time nieee. AS A TEACHER! HOW COOL IS THAT?! Heeeeeeeeee. Dear God, because of You... I'm smiling. Alhamdulillah. Hoping I get to finish those secretarial work by tomorrow or hm..., next week. Kinda been working 7 days a week for a few months now. Who say teachers work half day only maa? Back at 3, 4, 5 and sometimes at 6. At home, continue working. Punch in at 7:15 in the morning regardless the total hours. *Yawnnn* OT? What's that? Tak wujud dalam kamus seorang guru. Not complaining (tipuuuu jee!!! hee. but yeah, not complaining that much lah :~x ) Anddd very happy I don't get that many chance to sleep after Asar. :~D Am still very new to teaching. Tak cukup setahun lagi pun. Still a lot heading my way and am ready to learn! I smile most of the time (in and out of the school compound), I make friends with the children, we joke around like buddies do, I am surrounded with very helpful and supportive colleagues and loved ones... I just can't ask for anything more, can I? I wonder how my friends, in this same great profession, scattered all over Malaysia, are doing :~))) Wishing my dear friends who are teachers too, a VERY HAPPY VERY HAPPY VERY HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY! Heee. An early HTD wish. How much longer will I stay a teacher? Wallahualam. Good night!



But then... I realize:
- This is too personal to be placed on Facebook.
- It will be on the News Feed. Macam menyemak jeee status pepanjang camnie kat NF orang padahal takdak kaitan dengan depa pun. Sian pulop.
- Nobody cares anyway. Duuuhhh.

So, I decided to move it here. Haha. Why? Because, this is my own personal space. Only those who care enough will read this. People choose to click or visit blogs but on FB's NF, everything's stuck there even when people tak nak tengok pun. Heee. So, here it is lah kan. Pap! Terpampang di blog ini. Gosh, I miss her. Dah tak balik rumah lama dah nie padahal dulu, tiap minggu balik. Okay. Dah taburkan  muntahkan luahkan isi hati kat sini. Boleh tdoq dah. Hehe. Guten nacht!  

Maafkan patik, gambar tidak memberangsangkan.
Sedang kejar masa nie.  *run chase time*
k lame.

In case you don't understand the title of this post disebabkan penggunaan bahasa berkarat, it's "Busy. Busy. Busy. Very busy. Do you understand?" Taa~
Update:
- Busyyyyyyyy!
- Despite the busyness, I still try to make time for people (tak semua lah sbb x semua schedule free sama).
- Butttt, tu lah. Kalau ada orang tgk kita happy sikit, keluarlah ayat, "Eh, dia macam x de kje je.",  "Eeee, senangnyaa jadi cikgu." ... dan bermacam lagi lah. Haha. Tolak tepi semua itu dan terus pekakkan diri. Cobaaannnn. 

.:ilyanafauzy signing off at 3:45AM (GMT +08:00):.

Tuesday, April 15, 2014

Hectic

Busy, a busy busy week (and month). April's fool full of activities. Even on Saturdays and Sundays. Sorry to those I couldn't make time for.

Wish me luck. Thank you!

Gotta go now. Getting ready for tuition. Tata~

:~D

.:ilyana.fauzy signing off at 7:31pm (GMT +08:00):.

Sunday, April 13, 2014

Update.

I had tons of things I wanted to spill on this page but when I clicked "New Post", my mind suddenly went blank. This is how it feels like everyday at school.


Kena lah tunggu balik kannn. Takkan lahhh nak update blog dalam kelas. No time. No time...!
Sdg jaga exam pun, banyak betul kerja boleh buat masa tu.
While waiting between classes, bolehlah settlekan benda benda online.
Siapa kata cikgu dah tak payah isi pape online, siap dia. Heee
So, kena jugak tunggu time balik.

But...

As soon as the bell rings... 

Meeting oiii. Meetiing...!

Nak tanda kertas and buku-buku dulu lah before balik.
And... Jemputan-jemputan yang sukar ditolak.

Makan jom!
Keluar jom!
Makan jom!
Jejalan jom!
Beli barang hias kelas n barang rumah jom!
Makan jom!
Kak Syuhana! Nak g rumah akak!
Makan jom!
Main dgn budak kecik nie!

Bila ada time sikit untuk bukak laptop, cuma ingat nak buka nie je...

Kertas kerja, laporan, minit mesyuarat, bahan-bahan keceriaan kelas...
Semua ke laut.. Huwaaaa...!
So...

Monolog ini mengambil tempat.
(This monologue takes place)


Apabila tibanya hujung minggu...

FiZi's activities

Friends' weddings

FiZi's rugby

Family's weddings
School hockey: Training and matches
Bersiar-siar w/ 3Fs
School activities
Kemas and ceriakan kelas

When sedang dok diam-diam kat rumah... tetiba hati kecilku berbisik...

"Eh, nak balik Shah Alam lah..."

Haiyooo. In the end... Bila berjaya buka laptop and nak update blog...

Idea lesap.
P/S: Despite enjoying myself every day, my schedule's super full. So, memang minta maaf awal-awal to those yg ajak lepak tapi tak dapat join. Especially at night and in the evening. Malam tuition and my afternoons, almost everyday in April and May akan balik around 5 camtu if I don't bring barang-barang kerja balik rumah. Sorry! Jangan tak ajak lak dah ar. Heeee.

Update:
-Sangaaaat banyak kerja nak buat sebenarnya. Am so glad I have supportive friends at school :~)
-Laptop pulak nak rosak sekarang. Hm. 

WAIT WHATTT?!! DAH 5:30?! Alamakkk! Kerja tak start lagiiii!!!

.:ilyana fauzy signing off at 5:32 (+08:00 GMT):.
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