I really really really really REALLY feel like vlogging but I really really really really REALLY don't have the confidence to do so. How aaa? How aaa?? But nahhh. my concept isn't like AnwarHadi or other vloggers that are creative in creating videos tu. I did ask him though bout how to make videos. But his vids are hard to produce and I'm the pemalas type lah. Aiyooo. I'm planning to put the contents like the ones in my blogs, just that, it comes in the form of a video cz sometimes people prefer watching videos than reading blogs. Hmmm. How's that aa? I pun dunno. We'll see how lah.
The main reason I wanna start vlogging is to improve my confidence in talking to people. Well, technically, no. But yeah, the message is sent across the world through the video. Wuuuu.
Situation: Calling up a friend/whoever/loved ones.
You : Hello. Hi. (I dunno why I tend to say both of them although it means the same.)
N : Hello.
You : What are you doing?
N : Uh... (Pauses) Nothing.
Ever received this answer from anyone you called? Sometimes, rasa sakit hati sikit kan. Macam tak logic je tak buat apa-apa. Pikir nak jawab punya la lama kan.
Okay, this situation normally happens between FiZi and I. (Er... Isn't that obvious?) Because if I call abah, I've never heard him saying he was doing nothing. And among friends, there are always things to do around.
Anyway, this occurred (again) about 10 minutes ago. I hung up (panas hati punya pasal) after we were on the phone for 46 seconds. (But he didn't realize it cz I showed no sign of anger while I was still on the phone). Immediately after, I proceeded with my Minesweeper game I paused before calling him. While playing, my mind raced to thinking why he said that he was doing nothing. Uh, that's probably what he really was doing but truth is, I didn't believe him. (I rarely distrust him but in this case, I do. Hee. Sorry :~)) I suspected that he was playing CS or Dota or any sorta game that's available in his Vaio.
My addiction.
I'm not generalizing but I think, a lot of other women out there think that it is illogical to be doing nothing. For example, when I'm being asked what am I doing, I'll at least have an answer. "Just lying down", "Just resting", "Just sitting", "Just thinking..." (Or izzit just me? :~P) Okay. Maybe men consider that as doing nothing but uh... at least, there's an answer instead of "doing nothing".
Um, back to what I was thinking during Minesweeping (Recapping Paragraph 2: While playing, my mind raced to thinking why he said that he was doing nothing.), hm... Why...? Why... Oh! Maybe the problem is me. Me myself... That's where the problem lies. I used to scold him, saying that he plays games too much. Sorry. I used to ask why was he playing games when he wasn't giving me enough attention. Sorry. I used to blabber about how he should have spent the time on me instead of the games. We used to fight about how games affected our relationship. SORRY! OMG..! Am I THAT annoying or what?! Wuuu. Am very sorry about the past. Er.. Don't worry people. I no longer torture him about him playing games. (Do I sound mature sikit?) Heee I even requested to playing CS together and I hope I will get the chance of killing him. If he kills me first, I'll sulk like hell. Muahahahaaa~!
Okay, so... This means that I've to go easy on him. I've to let him do the things he enjoys doing. Only then, he'll let me know what he is doing exactly. No more "Uh, nothing..." or "Nope, I'm doing nothing...". Takkanlah nak spend 24 hours being with me. If I were in his place pun, I'll get rimas. (Wait, we spend time on each other pun tak sampai 10 minutes a day. Eheh.) Moreover, a marriage would make couples spend more time on each other and at that time, you want to spend 27 hours a day on your spouse also is okay maaa. Heee. So, let me just wait for that kinda life to come to me. It will be a lot more meaningful than now, hopefully ♥♥♥
Talking of this, it reminds me to one of Russell Peter's videos. "Women are always thinking". Hahaha. Sure as hell it makes me laugh. He always does. Thanx Mr. Peter!
Update tentang diri:
- I'm quite sleepy. I need to wake up kinda early tomorrow since I'm involved with a sorta Amazing Race for Malaysian Macquarie students at 9am. Huarrgggghhh! Don't wanna wake up so early laaa.
I've posted this video once on my Facebook and I find it kinda funny. The way I talked, my body posture while sitting, every single facial expression I made, everything. Phewww. Just now, I re-watched it and I smiled and again, I cried. Haha. Kelakar kan hidup nieh... One second, you're laughing your head off and the next thing happen, you have tissues in your hand, wiping those tears off. Haihh~
Some of you readers might not be aware that my mum has passed away 29 December 2009. (Al-fatihah). The video posted above was exactly a week after that tragic incident. 4th of January 2010. I appeared on the program after being requested by my father, the one sitting next to me in the video. His eyes were still red and he was still upset about the whole thing. He persuaded me constantly to be on the show since he didn't want the camera to focus much on him, letting the public seeing the despair in his eyes. :~( I refused to go on TV because I wasn't ready at all and despite the fact that I was the President of the Public Speaking Club in Form 5, I experience stage fright almost all the time. My voice will crack and fade. Aiyaaa. 5 minutes before the program started, I agreed hesitantly. (That explains why I didn't tell you guys, [my friends] about my appearance on Astro). It was short noticed.
They directed me into the make up room and applied some powder and light lipstick and blow my hair. That mad me look better, I guess. Haha.
Initially, my hands were trembling and I had to hide those fear... I was amazed at how I managed to look quite calm on TV. (Yeah right... :~P) After the broadcasting was over, my brother and sister congratulated me for doing a good job. Oh yes, they were there too, accompanying dad, keeping him happy. But they too, refused to be on TV and since I was younger than they are, I was an easy target. Ha-ha. There were several relatives that called after the program, informing that they saw me live on TV. (Waaa. So proud mehh).
The best part of it is... Dad's CENTRE OF MODERN LANGUAGES (CML) (I've to warn you tho... Upon the opening of the site, a loud music will be heard) received a couple of calls that morning, saying that they're interested in joining the classes. Weeeeeeeeeeee~!! I'm glad everything goes well for you. I'm proud to be your daughter. I love you dad. Thanx for making me the person I am today. Thanks Mama. Thanks Abah!
And owh, if I'm not mistaken, I've posted something on CML previously. Lemme check.. Uh... Yup! It's still there. (Yay! My memory's not that bad after all. Hee. Please click here --> CML(I've to warn you tho... Upon the opening of the site, a loud music will be heard)
P/S: I may take some time for a new post after this since I've to finish my assignments. Till then, take care! :~)
K. Wani and A. Syafiq's wedding reception here in Sydney. Married in September, they made the effort to held a little Springlove reception here for friends. This most probably will be the only Malay wedding reception I'll experience in Sydney :~) Here are several pictures for you guys. (Sorry for the limited number of pictures. Something went wrong with my camera halfway through.) Didn't even manage to capture a full picture of me, first time wearing a maxi dress too. :~P
The wedding dais: Simple yet lovely.
(Giving me a rough idea of my engagement day nanti ;~))
With the bride and groom :~)
Photo by Imran
With the bride: K. Wani :~)
K. Wani cantik tapi mukaku penyek. Heee...
Cake made by K. Niza. Yummy~
Venuses present :~)
<3 The lovebirds <3
Photo by Imran
:~) Likeyyy~
Photo by Nana
It's an honour to be invited to the event. Thank you.
May God bless this newlyweds dan mengukuhkan ikatan ini ke akhir hayat. Amin~
NOOO~! Don't click it! Please don't add the number of viewers they have... It's not worth your click, nor your time.
Lemme just tell u what it is. It's Justin Bieber's song, Baby. I've to admit, that song is still listenable, but to have the highest viewers...?! Anyone, please tell me any video that has more viewers than this. Please tell me one!
Jason Statham. Fuh... Jatuh ati. Dah lama ske tp xmo ngaku tapi nie la pengorbanan besarku buatmu... Mesti sok msok paper "After a long wait, Ilyana Zafirah admits that she likes Jason Statham TOO..." Haha. Since 1st cite Transporter dy dah suke. Sgt cool. Tp, lepas nie kena btau dy la jgn tayang badan sgt kat org. Jeles! Huhu. No more bout him. Saya suka dia. Pasnie, nak wat bout lg sorang. Yang I like extra EXTRA extra pny~ Nantikanlah... ;) Before that, anyone wanna try wild guesses? :D
